I stood there looking in the mirror, after showering, zoning in on that one thing. The thing I carry with me now, every. single. day.
All I could focus on was the flaw, the scar, the constant reminder that my body isn’t whole anymore. I felt disgusted.
We all have that, thing don’t we?
Sometimes we just don’t feel pretty. We become consumed, obsessed even, with what is wrong with us. I could tell you that, “what’s on the inside is what counts” or “beauty is only skin deep,” but sometimes that doesn’t ease that gut wrenching, I want to stay in my room and hide, kind of pain you feel about your thing. Instead, i’m going to say to you,
“Don’t dwell on it”
God spoke to me directly through David Crowder. I was on my way to work, and I was feeling all kinds of pitiful. I felt like my thing was displayed as a scarlet letter A on my forehead. So during my morning praise session, I heard a song that I’ve heard at least 100 times, “How He Loves,” and something just clicked. Does that ever happen to you? You hear something over and over, and then the Holy Spirit just moves in your heart, and you finally get it.
It’s like my internal spiritual light bulb came on when I heard the words, “…and all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory.” Right then, God looked down on me and said, “Sweet child, Don’t dwell on it.”
I don’t know if you’ve ever looked up the definition of the word eclipsed (probably not), but it basically means “to block out,” or “to outshine.” All those afflictions that overwhelm you, and make you dislike (or even hate) yourself, those things can’t outshine God’s glory.
The things you wear like a scarlet A, God doesn’t see those. When He looks at you, those things are quite literally blocked out by grace.
We don’t deserve what Jesus did for us. But it’s free.
You are one decision away from either dwelling on the things you don’t like about yourself, or dwelling on Jesus.
The Apostle Paul said it best, “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.” If you don’t believe me, believe Paul.
You’ve got to fix your focus. So much is right about you. It isn’t worth the tears, pain, or another minute’s thought. It does not compare to the light of Christ Jesus shining through you. Not even close.
Get excited, because you are enough, and you are beautiful. You have THE KING OF THE UNIVERSE radiating through that body of yours.
I challenge you, next time you look in the mirror, let your focus be Jesus. Don’t let those things eclipse the sacrifice He made on Calvary for you.
So, sweet child, DON’T DWELL ON IT.